If you could go back in time and talk to your 15 year old self, what would you say? Would you try to change certain experiences? Would you share wisdom?
In this post I write a letter to my 15 year old self.
Mental Health
dating, Thoughts
Can We Cancel Ghosting?
Journal entry from October 15th, 2020 at 12:03 am : My head is pounding from crying hard for so long. The tears are all dried up for now but the headache won’t go away…neither will the pain and confusion. He seemed like such a good guy…he is a good guy. Is he? I don’t know?Read More
Mental Health
Living with Body Dysmorphia
MENTAL HEALTH SERIES – PART TWO Body Dysmorphic Disorder (also called BDD, body dysmorphia) : A mental illness involving obsessive focus on a perceived flaw in appearance. The flaw may be minor or imagined. But the person may spend hours a day trying to fix it. The person may try many cosmetic procedures or exerciseRead More
Thoughts
“It would be funny to see you naked”
I’ll never forget it. It was 2012, and I was in London with my high school class. We had just graduated and were on our highly anticipated class trip. We walked along the pavement in somewhat single file, with small groups trying to walk together and chat. I was walking with my two closest guyRead More
Thoughts
An ode to 25
Today I am 26 years old. I’ve blown out the candles, opened the gifts, and heard my mom tell the story of March 30, 1994 once again. When I think back on this last year, my 25th year on this earth two words come to mind. Dumpster. Fire. Now don’t get me wrong I amRead More
dating
he didn’t show up…
*note: there is a small ounce of fiction in this post, however around 98% of the story is true. I had been thinking of the moment we would see each other, the moment we would lock eyes. Would it be awkward? Would it be sweet? Would it take us back to the days of ourRead More
dating
Only Accepting Me If He Accepts Me
When I learned that I was going to see him at Christmas, I went into full planning/panic mode. I researched diet plans to help me lose weight fast, I started planning “the outfit”, the one that would make him fall to his feet and regret ever turning me down. I even googled “outfits to wearRead More
Mental Health
“Wait…everyone else isn’t anxious all the time?”
Mental Health Series – Part 1 My first memory of anxiety was walking into Kindergarten. I clutched my dads hand for dear life while I held onto my Tweety Bird lunchbox in the other hand. I hung up my Pooh Bear backpack and lunchbox on the outside of the classroom and walked in. Kids andRead More
dating
We broke up…I think
I don’t know what we were. I don’t even know what you would call what we had. It was exciting, warm, loving … but too serious and too fast. He was older, about 6-7 years older. I had known his name for several years, but had never interacted with him — until a warm OctoberRead More
dating
25 and never had a boyfriend
In the 5th grade I remember hearing that girls and boys in my class were “going out”. I remember at the time I was so confused, I used to say to my friends “where do they go? the water fountain?”. Yes I was hilarious in the 5th grade. I was a tall girl with frizzyRead More